Day 2

Today was rough.

I’ve talked to a friend who recently had the same surgery and her liver reduction diet still included food and it was only 2 weeks. I’ve googled “liquid diets before surgery” and most of them only start 2 weeks before surgery and many of them do include food still. It’s really the surgeons preference and I trust the doctors at MD Bariatrics (I think 🥹).

If I’m being honest, reading all of that is a bit discouraging. I struggle HARD with restrictive diets but I have never had a time where I wasn’t allowed to eat any food at all. And this honestly doesn’t feel worth it. It feels cruel. It feels like torture.

I’ve had a headache all day. I’ve hit all of my targets for the day and I still have a headache. I spent a good twenty minutes sobbing to myself because I really don’t know how I’m going to make it through three weeks of this. Hell, I’m crying as I type this because May 20th feels so far away.

Silver lining: I tried the popsicles for the first time today. It’s been too cold to eat them lately. They’re amazing though. Forgot how bomb popsicles are when the flavor is good lol. Anyways. Those are something to look forward to.

I contemplated eating like a slice of deli meat today. What can it harm? No way my liver is gonna stay fatty and large over ONE slice of turkey meat. But, I kept reminding myself that the challenge here is mental. Yes, I’m hungry af but I am learning to have discipline through this 3 week process. It’s all preparation for the post-op life.

It’s temporary.
It’s temporary.
It’s temporary.

But it’s miserable right now.

-F